Find my stillness.   I often find quiet, sometimes peace each day.  Often love for Self, and lately growth in my aloneness.  But to be Still... that is when I am complete in Spirit.

I am not getting online much these days.  In communities where it is 'energy in to equal energy out', not to mention possible energy exchange.... I probably look to be a bad investment.  I do not come here to be fed, and I no longer feed on any external sources around me.  My banquet especially recently has been to see what it is I am growing and cooking up in my personal kitchen, and to turn wthin and not without to find the true Diane as I nourish my body, mind, and spirit.

I am no longer a Dorian Grey, the picture is now over my mantle in full view.  It still carries some of the marks of the journey, but I look upon them with love.  The room around is quiet and still and the painting no longer controls my destiny.   I am learning to be the Spirit that I Am apart from the shells of human experience.  All by myself.

One day when the recipe will call for another to spend time with me in my personal spaces, I will have All to offer for I will be whole, beautiful, and ready to give... and not seek just to find joy and comfort outside of myself.

And if you read this and understand, smile and greet me in the light.

Much love to any of my friends still around, who have embraced me unconditionally as my energy has been withdrawn at this time from Gaia, and know that I am never far away... even as I travel in some distances.  x

That after a rare snow in the suburbs of Los Angeles as a small child, you can't use roller skates on the concrete patio in the back yard.   (Hey, I was a five year old who dreamed of ice skating...  )   ;)

I just caught up with my friend's blogs having spent the past weekend offline and in quiet bliss with some beloved books.   What a gift this morning gave in reading so many blogs that had so much to share with me.  The strongest was to remind me to go into the day and play with it.  I had this long list of things to "get done".  I have had a wonderful shift and can barely wait to get out into the day.   

I love my friends here.  To be connected to such people is such an honor, pleasure, and reminder of Source... that which we All are.

Have a great day!   :)

A sense of awe and a huge grin.  My TUT Note from the Universe today:

"Warming planet - check.
Species on the brink of extinction - check.
Ice caps melting - check.
Economies in chaos - check.
Diane **** "in the house" - the one and only.

Grab a seat.  We're about to witness the most exciting comeback in history.

How do you always get these leading roles?
    The Universe

I trust this is going to be as good as your romantic comedies Diane?"

That is HILARIOUS because I was talking to Veronica this morning right before about how I am loving where I Am and hardly leave the house anymore, rather than running, running here and there and all over the world trying to find a "happier place".   I am LOVING my life right Now and exactly where I am at.  The romantic comedies was a hoot too, the Universe really does know me well.  ;)   

I am so darn grateful for everything today.  My experience right now is what I have put out in energy returning to me as the circuit that I Am.  And it feels great.  :)

Off to it.  And what it will be is what I choose to experience.  Right Now.  :)

Because the inverse is to look without.  For me looking outside of myself is to look at Form (human) versus Spirit and that which is Inside of Myself (higher self).

I spent this past weekend alone and with only me.  Last Friday I had a situation come up with my son (again) which had me in tears most of the day, and bringing out my checkbook having to float his boat once again.

Saturday I spent a lot of time looking within to what my expectations in human measurement are in this relationship, one of the closest we can have, and then what my approach in Spirit should be.   In the end I have fully realized that it comes back to Fear or Love... as it always does in this life journey.  Perhaps to look within is to be in the vibration of Love, and be-ing without is where Fear dwells... quite the concept to add into the mix.

So this morning I opened up my TUT Note from the Universe having spent the last two days not leaving the house at all and offline for the most part and found this:

"Remember the joy you used to feel when you'd find a quarter lying in the street?

And how exciting it was when you got older and found a crumpled $20 bill in the pocket of a pair of jeans you hadn't worn in months?

Well brace yourself, Diane, because the day isn't far off when in-between taking naps, swimming laps, and doing the routine happy dance, you'll be busy gathering documents for your tax return preparer and suddenly you'll find a statement to a bank account you don't even remember opening, with more than enough money in it to do whatever it is your heart now longs to do.

You do trip us out.

Sure enough,
      The Universe

Think about it, Diane.... about 5 minutes a day, here and there, now and then."

What was so amazing about this, (other than the dead on laps and naps)  ;)  was that on Friday as I was going through the process of how in the heck I was going to find the extra money for his car and insurance, I stumbled across an account I had opened to pay an allotment on my own car and discovered to my amazement that there was a nest egg large enough to sway all my fears in the day.  By this past Sunday night I came to the full realization that if I approach anything including life challenges, in Love, that the Universe will Always respond in like.  And, if I look within rather than without, I will always be in alignment with Self, Feel Good in the day, and rich in my human experience.

Why look within?  Because 'Without' is the Illusion.

Love in the day to my friend's here.  x

The Angel card that I drew and gave to myself from the Doreen Virtue Daily Guidance:

RELATIONSHIP

"Your primary relationship is with yourself and God, and every other relationship follows from there.  To attract, heal, or balance a relationship, then snuggle more closely with your loving Creator.  As you feel safe and loved within, so shall your other relationships bloom and prosper."

This was an invaluable card this week and a total gift, because I had asked the Angels to send me guidance on a relationship question a few days ago and drew this.  Doncha just love the "snuggling with your Creator" part?  I have this card up now in my office and am feeling so grateful for it.  I must have had a touch of spring fever, and was reminded by a friend to live in a state of Be-ing loved.  Beautiful Veronica sent me this excerpt from "The Shack":

"Most birds were created to fly.  Being grounded for them is a limitation within their ability to fly, not the other way around.
You, on the other hand, were created to be loved.  So for you to live as if you were unloved is a limitation, not the other way around."

I am now exploring more fully living as one that is loved.  I have growth to coax in this along with the awakening earth.   Been in my hibernation state, time to wake up and get out into the world.

I feel beautiful today.  Been a while since I felt that so strongly.  I took a walk at sunrise, the first in a while that was warm and lovely, and felt the love.

Love in the warmth for my friend's days here.  x

Loved this question that asks... what were you Do-ing one year ago today?   I was very much in the state of doing.  I was living in a condo having moved out of my family home at the start of the year, preparing to get ready to leave for a trip to Europe which included London, Berlin, and Paris, and I was finding my feet as a completely independent person.  Today, I am Be-ing what was just the scratching at the surface of that lady.  What a year it has been!  A new homeowner, a new cat, and the space to discover the world directly around me, rather than escaping to other places to feel free.

I was doing well one year ago.  But today I am being better.  And more to come......

This question made me laugh, pretty darn subjective.  ;)   Who says the world needs saving?  Who says "we" are the ones to save it?  Who says someone or something else might not be the best to do that if needed?  Does the question reflect the globe or mankind?  Or... is the All and We just one single organism made of that which is the matter of the stars?  Inquiring minds, well actually just mine, wanna know....  ;)

I think for myself that it Is what it Is whether any individual feels for what they may wish to save it To or For.  It is from their human perspective of what they think it should Be.  The earth has and will cleanse itself when needed, it is more than capable of doing so.  And it is the same with mankind and civilization if you think about it.

Anyway, the reason I stopped by this morning is that I am in a new place in my growth and wanted to catch up here in a pause.  It is a wonderful feeling, and I am enjoying the Being There.  Have spent very little time online lately or in fact with other people, but I am steering mainly in the direction in the days that feels good to me.  What a freedom it is becoming!  Been celebrating that I no longer am Taking, or expecting anything from anyone or anything outside of myself, but with the understanding as well that the time to give is coming upon me.  Had a looooong convo with my best friend this morning about just this, then I opened up my TUT message for the day.

"Never underestimate, Diane, how many friends you have, how close you are, and how much fun you're going to have.

Because, as you've seen throughout your entire amazing life, one usually gets exactly what they've been estimating.

Your thrill me,
       The Universe

How close are you, Diane???"

So after sending a wink in the Universe's direction, my answer was... I am having fun Now.  I feel better than ever, but if you are asking me about future fun with others, I am opening to the possibilities.  Just not Needing.  YAY Di!!!

How close?  I am only a glance in the mirror away.  :)   And I feel the thrill, deep down to the bone.

Hope any friends here still stopping by are having fun, thrills, and joy in their own days.  It is almost spring, I can feel it, and there are more amazing moments coming in all our lives.  And in the end, that is the "saving" grace of our Spirits isn't it?

Blessings today.  :)

Woke up this morning and felt a bit tired.  I was quite the past weekend.  I had company for a couple of days and spent some saturated time with a dear friend from my past who I have recently reconnected with.  Went back to work yesterday and felt quiet.  Got an email towards the end of the day that was hinting that Congress had not yet funded the FAA for this year and the breath of the word furlough came at the closing.  I have seen in my 21 years this come up a few times before, but having just bought my home in the lat year I sorta went in reaction.... hmmmmm.

Driving home I went back in thought to "A New Earth" and the tools I have learned from it.  In staying In Today and the Now the fears of all those tomorrows fall away don't they?  As I am creating my new life, and loving my spaces and home, I at times find myself concerned about security, protecting what I now have, worrying about my cat and if have left everything turned off, powered down, and in a state of safe keeping.

This morning I did my typical check on everything and asked my angels to watch over my cat and home, left in the rain, got to work and then opened up my daily message from Neale Donald Walsch.....

"On this day of your life, Diane, I believe God wants you to know...

....that safety is not the thing you should look for in the
future.  Joy is what you should look for.

Security and joy many not come in the same package.
They can...but they also cannot.  There is no
guarantee.

If your primary concern is a guarantee of security,
you many never experience the truest joys of life.
This is not a suggestion that you become reckless,
but it is an invitation to at least become daring.

Love, Your Friend...." 

Daring was a word that grabbed me in this.  Now, in much of my life I have done daring things... traveled extensively on my own into many of the world's corners.  But what this speaks of to me is not the external daring of the journey, but rather the inward daring.  Daring to let go inside of all the security that I can tend to grasp onto and hold with inner fists clamped as tightly as my essence can hold.    That kind of thinking is what slowed me down externally in the past, and that kind of thinking is what can also block my spiritual freedom.  For even growth and knowledge of the Path can become an attachment, and without the joy and reckless spirit to break free of All and allow the universe to take me to new places.... repetition in my ife and painting the inner picture to a variation of what the outer once was.

Okay, another one of those paragraphs that I am not sure what the heck I wrote.  But it felt good, it felt freeing, it felt like the cutting of cords of attachment, and it felt like Trust.

Another thought here is that I created my surroundings today in Joy, but if I now recreate Security which is Fear versus Love... I have begun the blockade of the flow.  Yeah... I see that....

And, if you are grasping with both hands the security, how are you free to hold the Joy as it dances around you?

I have been becoming too comfortable and encased in the safe little world I have created.  I Get it.  Thank you Universe.

Love today to my friends in the daring of their own days.  :)  xx

This morning I would be pink.  The color of pure love and newborn babies.   These two are my sister's new twins.  Precious angels.....

I'm a Child of the Universe.....

That was fun, now for the rest of today's offering.  ;)   I have not been very inspired to blog this week, had some 'good material' happen in my life, but to bring it into a blog just did not seem to be on the mental block.  But this morning's email from Neale Donald Walsch was so in line with my week I thought to paste it in here.

"On this day of your life, Diane, I believe God wants you to know...

....that it sometimes looks like "one thing after the other,"
but really, it is Blessing After Blessing.

I know, I know...you don't experience it that way.  But
that's because you don't see it that way.  In this business
of life, "What you see is what you get."

If you think you are looking for struggle, struggle is what
you will experience.  If you decide that you are looking
at a gift (even if you can't see it clearing in this exact
moment), a gift is whaty you will get.  Just wait.  You'll
see.  I mean that literally.   You will see. 

Love, Your Friend...."

The part that really got me?  It was the You will see.  That is the All of it for this week for me.  I just got out of a very long conversation with a friend about the economy and all that is around us....  and we hashed it out pretty good.  But at the end of it we both came back to our true reality, that what our lives Are is what we are Seeing them as.  I am the creator of it... and even in what the more national vibration is currently, it Is exactly what I Am now. 

What I am seeing for myself is the Spring coming, warmth creeping into my bones, the earth in my backyard awakening.  I see me shaking off the cold, fluff, and extra poundage from the still of the winter months.... and enjoying the clear skies, bright energy, and promise of the new days coming.  I feel excited about my environment, the people in it, the people coming to it, and how I Feel about it all. 

I can also see that without past trials I could not appreciate fully the gifts of today.  And it is for this reason exactly that God created Me in the first place, so He could fully experience Himself.  I am a miracle atom.  I am a fast darting proton.  I am spectacular energy.... made up of the stars and all the colors of the rainbow.  I am endless, eternal, a goddess supreme, and I AM a child of the universe.

Yep, I am pretty darn great today.  And So may You Be too.  Love to my friends in their portion of the universal molecular structure today.  :)